'But I hadn't taken enough, and I woke next morning to the phone ringing.I could barely speak, so my friend realised what had happened and called an ambulance.
He was so utterly insistent about accompanying me to the scan that it made me think he was coming just to make sure I followed through with the idea.
'We told the nurse that we'd decided on an abortion - and three weeks later, when I was 14 weeks pregnant, I went through with it.
The community practice nurse just didn't feel I was fit to be home.
'When I returned home for good, I stopped working as I couldn't cope with daily life.
'I felt I'd met my soulmate and was delighted when he said he wanted children with me.
'But when I announced the good news, Alan fell silent.
I was already overwhelmed by the pressure of looking after the two young children from my marriage.
'From the moment I came round from the anasthetic, I was devastated about what I had done.
The wonderful man I knew vanished overnight, and our relationship rapidly deteriorated.